Myself

Seventeen years have flown past. Here I am, living in New Zealand (a small continent off the coast of Antarctica), and living the life of an ambitious student who wishes for nothing more than to learn, live and love. My drive for knowledge is a drug that I run off. There is never a limit to what a human being can know, and unlike actual drugs, it does not harm you- unless of course you are the Government and it all goes to your head. Philosophy fascinates me, it's a subject of infinite possibilities! Pursuing a career in journalism I've taken a break for two years. After finishing an apprenticeship in mechanic's I plan to continue with writing.

Saturday, April 18, 2009

Sat 4:25PM 18/04/09 The multi mind? Or mentally unbalanced? The latter.

Multi Mind? Or Mentally Unbalanced? The latter.

What I really need to write about is how frustrated I am. Today has been an absolute f*** of a day. But if I rant on about my personal issues, people will think I am directing it at them. Which, by the way, I am not. Like you're special enough.

The motivation for this blog was a discussion last night with a friend. 

It made me come to terms with the enormity of people and just how they affect you, and your life. 
Every individual you know changes your life. From influencing you to buy a new shirt, to brainwashing you to believe in segregation (harhar), people have the ability to change your life, almost as much as you have that ability to do so.

I guess that is where the saying 'your friends reflect you as a person,' originated from. The people we socialise with will influence us, and we them. Our beliefs, actions and dreams all effect someone in some way. Every person is prone to being influenced by others, some more than most. 

I just find it remarkable how the mind can connect with a person, whether it is a conscious connection or not, it makes little difference. Why do our brains choose that person, what is special about them that makes us like them as people? And surely we have to know the person before we can classify them as a person whom we will get along with?

I for one, have definitely experienced connecting with people before knowing them. Maybe it's a vibe I get from them, an aura, whichever you wish to call it, but my mind and body subconsciously makes a connection. And more times than not, those people  have turned out to be magical. 

But what the hell is up with my mind deciding that someone is absolutely incredible, when as far as I can tell, they're nothing special. Brilliant, my mind is completely messing me up again. They're incredible, they're average, incredible, average, incredible. Make up your mind mind. It is driving me slowly psychotic. It's entirely absurd, the human mind. We make decisions without physically making them.

I am probably mentally unbalanced but to be perfectly honest, that decision that my mind made? I completely disagree with it. 

Is there some multi mind within us all? There must be, there is no doubt about it. Because I didn't make those decisions. It'd be nice if my 'multi mind' would un-decide them for me. 

So, these people impact your lives right? The next question is whether it applies to falling in love. And once again, why that person, why do we choose them. What is it. 

And once again, I am entirely confused.
I will resort to cramming my brain full of caffeine. 

-Joy


Well that blog failed. Turned into me ranting about things anyway, what a failure.


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